as i sit and stare into the screen, i can feel a bead of sweat moving down my tummy and another one running down my spine. the temperature's been up at about 34.4 degree centigrades. that's inside. out side it must be a little around 37 maybe. and today in the news it was flashed that yesterday calcutta recorded the highest temperature. a heat wave is on, they say. it struck me as odd that i was out yesterday in the afternoon. i felt it allright. but wasn't sure if it was the heat wave. the news made it sound as if its something serious. but i was fine. walking down the boulevard. the hoogly wasn't churning up much wind to comfort me but i was okay. i just thought i would sit in front of the hoogly and smoke. something i haven't done for a long time.

it was only yesterday that my father told me about something i had been preparing myself for. but didn't know it would hit me this hard. it is one thing to prepare, quite another when you are actually confronted by it.

all i can do now is nothing. i guess.